A missing piece

There's a missing piece inside of me, the rhythm of my heart hits unevenly,

-David Choi

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You know how Facebook will show the two people that you talk to the most under recent contacts?

She is not there anymore.

What is this mixed feelings I am having? I am sad to be honest. It’s a little sad isn’t it? How two people can be the closest human beings and another day, they are not anymore.

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After the break up, I built my wall, as thick as I could, as high as I could reach. I thought it was perfect, I thought I am healed, I thought I am alright. I could even talk to her normally on the messenger. When she did not reply my casual his and byes, I could just wave it away with the thought, well, we are not together anymore. But why is it that just by appearing before me, the wall that I so carefully built, brick by brick, came crumbling down. This is a joke, ain't it? 

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And then, for a very long time after that, I cried. I cried like it was the first time she said to me, I don't want this anymore.

On second thought, it was the first time I saw her after we broke up. And she said that I was prettier before this HAHAHAHAHAHA FML thanks for breaking my heart and then kick it. 

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The things that she gave me.... I still have them. I don't have any courage to throw them away because then it will be real. Final fuckingly real. I know I am an idiot for holding onto these feelings and memories that she probably never even gave one millisecond of thought to but.... I don't know. I just can't. T_T Someone please help me to. 

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What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I really hope it is true. And I hope it comes fast because I have had enough of being a pathetic little shit. T________T

Maybe one day when I reread this post, I will come to realize what a foolish little motherfucker piece of shit I am and that it is okay to feel sad and cry sometimes. It is okay to not be strong. And it is okay to love again. But right now, I need to focus on not crying and be natural around the person that .... I used to know. 

When I was 7

When I was 7, my mom gave me my first pocket money, I think it was RM3. Prior to that, I always brought breads to school for lunches and would not need to spend any money. I forgot why and how but I was given three bucks.

Big fucking deal.


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But to the seven-year-old sloth who has never had even one ringgit before, the sloth viewed the three blue notes as if they were the ring that everyone fought to have in LOTR. My preciousssss (please read this in Gollum's voice thanks)

Somehow, a crisis happened.

Yes, one of the three blue notes went missing. Dropped. Disappeared like Houdini. Poof. Nowhere to be seen.

The seven year old Sloth retraced her steps and went back to everywhere she was. She went to the office, to the bookstore and looked for it on the floor. Her friends helped too.

But the blue note remained missing or had acquired an invisibility cloak, she does not know. She was worried and her friend told her that they should just report it to the teacher. When she recounted the story to the teacher, she cried super pitifully.

The kind teacher took out a one ringgit note from her desk and told her that someone has picked it up earlier and has handed it to her.

Sloth was once again reunited with one of the three blue notes and the four of them (Sloth and the three blue notes) lived happily ever after.

The end.

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But right, now that I am older and relatively wiser, I now realize that the blue note must have came out from the teacher's own pocket lololol. Anyway, if you are reading this, Pn. Violet (even though I don' t think you would lololol) THANK YOU <3

and erm when I told C this story, she laughed at me fml and asked me to blog about it ahhHahahhaha so here it is.

Okbyeee

HAPPY IS ME

BECAUSE GUESS WHO GOT HER COLLEGE DORM?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????


ME, THATS WHO!

I AM SO HAPPY I SHOULD DO TWO BACKFLIPS AND ONE PENGUIN DANCE
<3


Thankyou Buddha, Allah, Jesus

and also C and also TP whom i pester to pray for me HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA

TINDERTALES

HIIIIIII

So I was going through some turbulent times (hahahah) and C intro-ed Tinder to me lololololol (/whispers thanks) and without it, I think I wouldn't have such a speedy recovery (lol)

Anyway, Tinder is really the place where you find lots of crazy characters (albeit some of their counterparts are above the average level of boring)


Exhibit #1
Title: Uncreativity
Let's call him UG for Uncreative Guy.

So what happened was i, as always being the troll that I am is uhh trolling fellow tinder-ians la.
So when he said yo without anything else, I was honestly abit sian. Like what do you say after that??? And that is why I tried a Yo Mama joke but obviously this guy did not get it and uhh when i tried to deviate him from the pick-up line that he is brewing, he was lost and I unmatched him /mean

EXHIBIT #2
Title: Cow

I am creative /puts on proud face with arms akimbo

So there's this guy whose name is Sir.

And I called him Sirloin

AHAHAHAHAH okla not very funny also

/retreats slowly and closes the door to prevent any of you leaving

EXHIBIT #3
Title: RSM (Relatively Smart Guy)

I dont have screenshot of this but there's this guy whom i was talking to and then being the troll that I am, I made him guess for everything such as name, phone number etc lah. So I gave him my phone number except the last digit and asked him to figure it out himself.

And this RSM actually quite smart ah. He went to add every number known to human kind (even the number 10 WTF and that is why he is relatively smart and not Einstein wtwfwtfwtfwft) and added all of those numbers on WhatsApp (BTW GUYS, IT IS WHATSAPP, not whatapp or whatapp, or whatapps, It is WhatsApp alright??!!!!! sorry, just a tiny pet peeve that I have)

And lo and behold, only two numbers have Whatsapp and one of them is an Indian guy with piercing stare that could pierce through your brain XDDDDDD

I'll just blur out the guy's face except the eyes to protect his identity lah XD

Scary hor?
I actually laughed out loud when the RSM sent me this XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Ok that's all the funny ones that I have la. If there's more I will do a part 2 ok.



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Please pray that I can get college (It's Residency College but we usually just call them college or KK).
CHEBAL BUDDHA ALLAH JESUS
/prays


OKBYE

Drive me to hell

Edit: Break to brake (/closes face at own mistake wtf like why in the world would i think that brake is spelt break T_T) and erm credits to TP for recognizing that wtf. Erm according to him, TP is the perfection, but I would like to think of it as tuapui /mean
hAHAHAHAH TP if u see this i am kidding ok (or am I? hohoho)


I'm known for my notoriously bad driving skills. And that's why even after I got my driving license two years ago wtf ( which erm is from 'bao' aka erm under table wtfwtfwtwf but in my defense right, I only failed naik bukit ok wtf ). So,
................(I need some alcohol right now la wtf)............................................................................
------------brb while I go watch Knowing Brothers T_T ---------------------------------------------------

sadness turned anger now wtfwtfwtwtfwtf

Yeah so, that's why I have to relearn la ok. And also cox I never drove after getting my license
lololol. So today while I was sleeping, my dad woke me up to get my license so that he can make my L license (cox u need it when u learn driving on the road, even if u have a legit driving license). Then after giving it to him, I went back to sleep, only to be rudely woken up an hour later by my dad saying that he already made an appointment with the Driving Tutor?/Uncle? (aiya let's just refer to him now onwards as DU aka Driving Uncle ok) on 12. And that time it was 11. So I went to eat, bathe and all and went to meet DU.

So, DU appeared to be kind and all so I was like ok, this guy not bad la. Not like my previous machaohai uncle who played Candy Crush while sitting beside me when I'm driving. But jeng jeng jeng, first impression usually not correct one. WTF

And also I admit I am a really bad driver wtf and you have to tell me exactly like when to change gears and stuff right? But no, he just blabbered off then when I ask him, he talked about other things so I'm like... wtf bro. So from then on, my face abit dulan liao la wtf. Then he went on to ask u got take undang one anot. You 'bao' for undang also ar? (throws in more sarcastic remarks which I'm not even bothered to respond to anymore) Then when I don't respond, he was like eh u cannot hear me ar/??? WTFFFFF U THROWING A SARCASTIC REMARK AND I DON'T WANT TO RESPOND WHAT DO U THINK IT MEANS??? :D :D :D :D :D :D ^_____________________^

And also, he made me take another route back home, which I'm not familiar with la ok. I am not Columbus (the one who discovered America wtf) the explorer ok. Nor am I Dora tsk. Then when I said I don't know this way, he went all near your home you also don't know ah? Then when I finally saw a familiar place and knows the way, I just directed myself la (cox I'm driving what). Then when we almost reach my house, he went all AHHHHH ITS THIS PLACE YEAH I KNOW LA MY FRIENDS LIVE HERE ONE WHAT. IF WE USE THE OTHER ROUTE IT IS EASIER LOR, WHY U HAVE TO COME AND USE THIS ROUTE BLABLABLA. MAFUCKHAI OK U R THE ONE WHO DON'T KNOW WHERE MY HOUSE IS AND I KNOW SO SHUT THE FUCK UP LA I DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE THE OTHER 'EASY' ROUTE U MEAN OKK KNNCCCBMAHAI. /FIRE/


and also one thing in common with all drving school uncles are that they are menopausal men???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When got Bumper Situation 1:
DU: GOT BUMPER AHEAD. BRAKE.

When got Bumper again Situation 2:
EH WHY U BRAKE !!!!!!!!!!!!! JUST DON PRESS DOWN ON OIL PEDAL.

And some random times situation A:
EH CLUTCH.

Same situation but different time:
WHY U PRESS DOWN ON CLUTCH???????

IM GONNA STUFF HIS FAT HEAD INTO MY GRANDMA'S CLUTCH MAHAI.


Then I snapped at the driving uncle and when we reached home, at my dad T_T sorry dad wtf
NO SORRY FOR U DRIVING UNCLE!
I also know that its cox under stress and if he doesnt do what he did. we would both be dead on the streets la but this is my blog leh. let me rant can or not. T___________________________________________________________________________________T

Really dunno why must pay money to go thru stress T_T

SWEETS

So I was in KTM the other day to come back home (thankiu highlighter for fetching me to KL Sentral T______________T and then after that she got lost trying to go back AHAHAHAHAHAH FHL)  and there's this lady who sat beside me. I unwrapped a piece of sweet (is it called piece?)  ( u know from those one batang of Clorets)


as depicted below WTF. photo stolen from google. I actually wanted to be rajin and snap a photo of my own Clorets one ok. But dunno why my camera derhaka must fail on me. T__________T It keeps on showing Warning! Camera failed. T_TT_T_T_T__T_TTT_T_T__T_T_T







and I was happily eating it. Then I realized the lady beside me was looking at me lah so being the kind soul that I am, I offered her one and she took it, All was well and dandy until I told Highlighter (pls refer to previous post wtf) about it and she said that I'm a crepe and a weirdough. Okla weirdough is I add one wtf.

WEIRD MEH. CREEPY MEHHHHHHHHHHH


and she said there could be two possibilities.

POSSIBILITY A)

The lady's legs don't touch ground wan aka need to live in an umbrella aka hantu aka wuwuwu wtf.
Cox right when I passed her the batang of Clorets, she painstakingly tore one out but didn't eat it. Maybe it's because JENG JENG JENG she only eats colok.

POSSIBILITY B)

She thinks I'm a creep who suddenly offered her a sweet and quickly took one so that i fasterly fuck off T_T.

And then the Highlighter reminded me of a confession post (Ok actually two posts) she saw somewhere. I'll try to type it out as best as I can la ok.


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CONFESSION 1.  (By annonymous)
Today, I saw a girl sitting by herself in the busstop. It was raining heavily and I thought offering someone a sweet could cheer her day up. So I walked up to her and gave her a piece of sweet. I would like to think that I have brightened up someone's day :)

CONFESSION 2,
Today, I was sitting by myself in the busstop when suddenly a guy came up to me and gave me a sweet. Super creepy lah can? So I quickly took it in hopes that he will fasterly leave.
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T______________________________________________________T

Highlighter was saying that I am like that Creepy guy T______________T T_________________T

phone call

So today I called C using messenger call but then her brother picked up instead. I couldn't hear what C was saying, mind you , I don't have the thousand mile ears like the guy in the Nezha drama wtf so whatever she said is purely on my imagination and assumption WTF

Me: Hello 

C's bro ( i wanna abbreviate it wan but CB abit rude right? wtf) :  EHHHH YOUR FRIEND CALLED YOU.

C: /probably asking who it is/

The bro: /recites out my full name wtf

Me: /silently off the call

Then I picked up my courage (actually cox C ask me to try again) so I did! This time it's her mom who picked up WTFWFWFWFW

Mrs C: Hello. Sloth (That's me wtf) ah. Wait ar. /shouts for C

after a while....

The bro: What did she say?

Mrs C: She ask me to not answer the phone

The bro: /snickery laugh

Me;: /silently off call again fml WTF

HAHAHAHAHAHHA dunno to laugh or cryyyyyy wtf

Do you misss meeeee wtf. U do right right right?  It's ok im back now wtfwrf.  Anyway this week idk what happened but I thought time passes too quickly. I just blinked and I'm already having tests next week /bulldog face.

Ohya I had an event which I was a committee of and it finally ended. Hurrahhhhh. And they had this flashback video to let us er reminisce what happened during our event I guess wtf and my photo was in it. Nothing out of the ordinary right. Since i was there after all.....But the picture of me is one that is super ugly. Like sleeping with mouth open and having a weird terkangkang pose kindof ugly. T__________________________T how la liddis. Do I walk like an ostrich next time with head buried in the sand? T.T and right who sleeps pretty anyway! /./ other than sleeping beauty. cox how can sleeping beauty be ugly right? If not she would be called sleeping ugly. #genius wtfwtwfwtw

And also the first presentation for this semester is over as well. And the lecturer was asking us questions and the presentation I did was on histogram and bar chart (business statistics ugh) and he asked me why did I choose to draw a bar chart? But but I didn't choose to draw that bar chart. The bar chart chose me wtfwtwftf. so I honestly told him that(to which my friends say im rude. Simi sai tsk isn't honesty the best policy????)

And on another note, my business statistics lecturer is very good looking /heartsineyes wtf and super cuteee kyaaaa. However this does not make me wanna attend the class more /shitz sorreh

To end this post let me show u my super gopd rooking lecturer

Photo credits to my coursemate wtfwtf

And let me introduce you to a highlighter wtf

Photo credits to me wtf. Starring : the trusty calculator that belonged to a certain sloth.  Okbye

Intro wtf

HI!!! /waves excitedly.

So this is like the nth time i created a blog already. WHY you may ask. COX I LIKE LA WTF

but truth is cox when I read back Chen's old blogs, I was like hey! I want to have these writings and thoughts that I have at one point in my life to read back too! Yeah and also I deleted those n-1 blogs I created once upon a time. /cries dramatically

......BTW I'm hungry........ Don't look at me with judgmental eyes la ok. I only had a currypuff and a few pieces of koko crunch from morning till now which is like 3pm ok. /weeps dramatically while holding tabung to collect donation for this poor pitiful college student /points to self.

Anyway, I digress. Back to the topic, A little intro of myself cox erm what if someone reads my blog and wanna know who I am right??? (actually only chen reads this la but anyway...)

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I am a sloth who is currently a student in a uni. T_T who is thinking of graduation every day but is only in First year as of now. I don't like any sports at all and I hate running. Okla maybe its the other way round. Running hates me. You probably will go all hey but u neba try also how would u know rightttt. But i did ok T_T and i get stomach ache everytime i run. /realz

Actually nothing much to say also la. Sloths update very slow one so if bo blog dont scold me ok /stares at chen.

okbye